I Wish You Could See Me in Action
I wish that just once, you could give me a day.
A day of your total attention!
So I could just prove all these things that I do,
That I desperately try so to mention!
I wish you could grasp what it is that I see
So that maybe, just once, you’d believe.
In this dream that I have, in this God given task
I am literally dying to achieve.
I have no control of the people around me,
At least not the way that I should!
Why do they treat me like some kind of a-hole,
when all that I want seems so good!
You can’t base your facts on the picture I’ve painted
from only and always my worst!
Just once, if you watched and you saw what I do,
Your faith in me prob’ly would burst.
It is chivalrous! Valiant! A challenge! A quest!
A dream God implanted in me!
If that is a lie and that wasn’t my God,
only one other thing it could be.
So please come and stay with me, once in your life,
Give me your time, for one day.
Let me express all the things in my heart.
Let me please say the things I must say.
You never have witnessed me when I am flying
And burning the candle’s both ends.
You never have gave me the chance to express me;
the way I would like to - as friends.
No way, you could know what is burning inside me,
unless you could listen, completely!
Too often we’re sidetracked by other distractions,
and I end up hurt, indiscreetly!
If you’d just pay attention and listen, wide open,
to what I have long wished to say;
you would then understand, what you never have not,
why I am like I am to this day.
Then maybe the rumors and gossips about me,
that sicken my heart and my soul,
could balance them-selves, to my favor a bit.
Give me back what these rumors have stole!
I deserve a fair shake for one time in my life.
Where someone shows interest and care!
Not just at those times when my life’s at it’s worst.
All those times that you always were there!
My mind is still sharp and my goals within reach.
My plan, I just know, will succeed.
I’m trying to do all of these burdens myself,
but there’s so much I desperately need.
Like some moral support and some int’rest in me.
I need these few things very fast.
I can’t keep on living with all my regret.
I have to let go of my past.
My future could be such a bright one if only,
I had the few funds to get thru this.
A fortune awaits me, once I’ve momentum.
I swear to you mom, I can do this.
I’m scared you are ill and I can’t do a thing,
except maybe to bring you some peace!
I want you to know, that your son found his niche.
That’s a fear that I hope you’ll release.
In the end I will say, it’s with thanks to my mother,
who never gave up on her boy!
Who gave me her trust when nobody else would!
I want you to know that sweet joy.
It’s important to me that you see my star shine,
Before it is burned out completely!
It is all cuz of you I have made it this far,
That the devil failed trying to defeat me!
I pray for your health several times every day.
I am scared of the chance I may lose you.
I’m sorry for being the pain I have been.
I am sorry that’s all you are used to.
I’ve tried to be there for you, when you were needful.
I’m here for you always, you know.
I’m thankful for all of the things you have done for me.
Though it does not always show!
Our days are now numbered. Let’s make our times good ones.
The ones we’ve remaining to share.
Please bury the past cuz there’s no way to change it.
Just know I’m concerned and I care.
I care for your comfort. I care for your loneliness.
I wish I could take all that pains you.
Please empathize too, with the pains which I struggle.
Please give me the hopes this pertains to.
I’ll do everything that I can in the future.
To help you, my best, to get thru this!
Let’s give it our best to become best of friends.
It’s important, mom, both of us do this.
Let me remember you, trusting, believing;
Encouraging right til the end!
Prove to me what you have said since my childhood,
A mother is her sons’ dearest friend.